Zahida Allen Opens Up About Battle With Anorexia As She Blasts Cruel Bodyshamers | MTV UK
24 August 2017 4:04 PM
I can't believe I am even posting this. But I feel like I have no choice. I know I don't have to explain myself to anybody but I am SICK of having to deal with people calling me pregnant. It's not nice to receive messages of random people saying "how come you're always drinking if you are pregnant?" When have I ever said I am? If I was, I most definitely would not be going on nights out drinking. When I was younger I suffered from health issues, I was anorexic at one point and on the road to recovery I was bang into modelling where certain people told me I had to remain a certain size & it was slowly I started realised that it was wrong. On the left, that's me 18 years old, pale, unhealthy, my ribs sticking out. That wasn't a good enough then and the size I am isn't good enough now. The size I am currently, is the biggest I have ever been and tbh I am quite happy that I don't look like the image on the left anymore. I don't even recognise myself. I never air my personal issues on social media that's why no one knows about any of my health issues. But to the people who constantly comment on my photos, my boyfriends photos and even some pictures my family have uploaded & even direct message me to say "definitely pregnant" - I have stomach swelling problems. I had ulcers in my stomach and oesophagus which still cause problems and I swell around my ribs and belly, I can't help it when that happens. But just because this happens why should I be forced to cover my stomach up? Why shouldn't I wear bikinis on holiday like any other normal 23 year old girl? Why am I too fat now? Why is Sean too good for me just because other people say that's the case? Why am I disgusting for putting weight on? You don't know anything. Think before you speak!! And to every person who has been kind enough to stick up for me when I have gave up, thank you so much. I see all of your nice comments and you have no idea how grateful I really am. And @sean9pratt puts up with my anxiety and crying every single day, every time I doubt myself, he gives me the confidence to believe, he makes me feel confident every time I don't feel good enough. I love you so much ?
The 23-year-old is sick of being told she looks pregnant.